In my last post, I talked about creative doubt. Last night, I went to see Believe: The Eddie Izzard Story which was showing at my local cinema. The most interesting part of the documentary, to me, was about Izzard's beginnings. His sheer determination. To try new things. To keep going even when everyone told him he was terrible. His belief in himself.
"You've got to believe you can be a stand-up before you can be a stand-up. You have to believe you can act before you can act. You have to believe you can be an astronaut before you can be an astronaut. You've got to believe."
And it's true. Because if you don't believe in yourself, then you're setting yourself up for a self-fulfilling prophecy of failure. As Izzard says in the documentary, it's a mind game. It's psychological.
And yet, you still have to question yourself, otherwise you 'could be lying in a ditch, at the end of your career' when you thought you were on top of the world. You have to believe in yourself, but not to the point of self-delusion. It's a careful balancing act.